Good, Good Girl

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Found the motivation I needed. My jeans are not fitting like they used to, my weight gain is now enough that I can really tell the difference.

I got my butt up this morning/early afternoon. Walked to the store to get some stuff, something I had not done since I was a teenager! Could have taken the car, but it’s only like a 10 minute walk and it’s really nice outside, so I decided to walk my happy ass there. It felt kind of strange, but I enjoyed every minute of it. Got home and did some cardio!

I have to give myself a pat on the back. This is exactly what I needed and I feel great. I just need to stay motivated and keep this up.

Thank you all for your support and encouragement!! It makes all the difference!!

Much love!

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It is a new day

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The sliding door is open. Enjoying the cool breeze and listening to the birds singing. Looking at the glorious clear blue sky and the trees. They are no longer paintings, they are real. Everything is real. The puppeteer is gone and angry. Looks like I showed him! He wanted to see me fail/fall, he thought that would happen, because he had no faith in me, did not believe I was strong enough. But I was and am strong enough. I had faith and believed in myself and was able to pull through. I also had help from my friends kind words, support, encouragement and belief. (Thank you for that!!!)

I look at my babies (dogs) and feel overwhelmed with love. Side note: Last night Sammie cuddled with me for about 1 hour. She never left my side. She has never done that before, not for that long. She’ll come by me every now and then for a little petting, but always goes on her own to the other side of the couch. She knew what she was doing, and it worked :) It is amazing what dogs realize, know and can feel.

The light is fighting its way through the darkness. Things are a little more clear. Things are slowly looking better. I am feeling slightly better, and really enjoying this right now. I don’t think I am in the total clear just yet, but that’s okay, just as long as I keep moving forward. And if I happen to fall back, that’s okay too. Because I know I will get up, dust myself off, and keep trying. I am not rushing anything. I am going with the flow, taking it slow (baby steps). Don’t want to set myself up for anything bad. No shortcuts for me. I must follow every step carefully and get there on my own terms.

Thank you for all of the love and support you show me!!! I always thought that people didn’t care. That everyone was out for themselves. I had little faith in people and their ulterior motives. I was wrong. People DO care! It’s just a matter of finding the right people :) And it seems I have found many, and I am in great company!

Peace, love, happiness and oodles of hugs!!!

Questions

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It’s almost midnight, almost a new year… and I have been thinking about this all day, and on other holidays too. For me, it’s just another day, because I treat every day as a fresh start, a new beginning. I don’t do resolutions on this day. I do them throughout the year when I am ready and when I decide to. Why do we wait for Valentine’s day to give our significant others cards, flowers, gifts and tell them how much we love them? This should be done whenever, just because. Why do we wait for Thanksgiving to think about what we are thankful for? Why do we wait for special occasions to wear certain clothes or do certain things. We should be thankful every day. Every day should treasured.  Every day IS a new beginning, you can choose how you want to start it. Any moment could be our last, and we should treat it so. Do what you want NOW! Don’t wait for those “special occasions” because they may never happen. If you love someone, tell them… as often as possible! Love with all of you heart… laugh as much as possible… and most importantly LIVE!!!

Be thankful, appreciate everything and everyone… don’t take anything for granted… be kinder, gentler… stop, breathe, take the time to inhale all the beauty that surrounds you… don’t be so hard on yourself… don’t waste your life away with worry and guilt… Love, Laugh, Peace…