- Do you or have you ever gotten a tattoo instead of self harming?
- Have you used the pain of getting a tattoo or piercings to help you “get by”, without you physically harming yourself? To keep you from harming yourself?
- Do you tend to get more tattoos when you are manic? or depressed?
For me, yes to all the above.
And here is a photo of one. She was not last-minute, I had wanted to get her for a while. But I was manic when I got her. And about 3 more tattoos within a 2 month period. I was also depressed. I do not regret getting her.
This is my most recent tattoo. This is a picture (doodle) I did of Sammie last year. In honor of her memory, I decided to get her tattooed on my leg. So I could still take her out for walks ;)
Sammie was my baby for 15 wonderful years. She found me in Germany in 1998. She was the runt of the litter, as soon as I saw her, I knew she would be an important part of my life. She traveled the world with me, always faithfully by my side. I love her and miss her so much. Putting her to rest was the most difficult decision I have ever made. But I knew it was time. I decided to be in the room while it was done. My husband and her ‘sister’ Roxy were also there. My heart hurt so much watching her as she slipped away. I did NOT want to let her go, but I had no choice. While it was extremely rough being there when it happened, I am glad I was there, as she made her way to the Rainbow Bridge.
A phoenix is a mystical bird that rises from its ashes. It symbolizes rebirth from a dark and ragged existence to a new and beautiful one. As I have done :)
And though she but little, she is fierce :)
That’s my GRRRRR!!! face :)
Before: I got this tattoo when I was 17. It is a rose, with a blue heart, with barbed wire wrapped around it.
Meaning: I was the rose; the heart was blue because I was “blue” depressed, felt alone; the barbed wire was something I put around myself for protection.
After: Had this one done last weekend. I am now 37. Bipolar Disorder/Mental Health Awareness Ribbon :)