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UPDATE to last post

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UPDATE to last post:

I did not end up getting hospitalized. My husband took FMLA to stay with me and watch after me. I have been taking my medications as prescribed. I am not really feeling any better. The house has not been cleaned in over 1 month. I did manage to clean the bathrooms, because ewwwww. :) I have lost interest in most things. I stay in bed most of the time. I go 3 days without a shower. I don’t eat much. My husband does eventually force me to eat and shower. I have been wanting to write this post forever, but have not had the energy. It feels like all of my energy has been zapped out of me. I feel like a puppet hanging on the side of the door. I do not find amusement in anything anymore. I am just here. Every now and then, yes, I will laugh here and there and feel “human”, but otherwise I feel like a waste of space. I don’t feel useless though. I have not lost all hope, but it seems to be slowly fading away. A good thing is that I have not self harmed in the form of cutting or burning. I have had piercings, which has been my own form of self harm. That is what has kept me from cutting and/or burning or anything else.

My husband is doing the best he can, but I am not making it easy for him. I do appreciate him doing this for me very much. He is my angel.

I know what I need to do to get better, but doing it is another story. Getting the energy and motivation to do what I need to do seems impossible, although I know how easy it is. I could just force myself to do things, which I have. I have done the laundry, and other things. I just need to keep forcing myself to do things until I get back into a ‘normal’ routine. So easy, yet so difficult. I am sure most of you know this.

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Self Harm, Tattoos and Piercings

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I have a question. And I know some of you may not feel comfortable answering, so I understand if I do not receive to many replies with this one.

I have been self harming since I was 13 years old. It’s been on and off throughout the years. Mostly cutting and burning, I also used to take a little to many aspirin or such to make myself sick. (Not sure why I actually did that, because getting sick was not fun at all, but I tie that into my self harm category).

Anyway, I have noticed this pattern before and recently noticed it again.

The question is: Do you get tattoos or piercings because of the pain?

For me, in part, yes. Most of my piercings I get because of the pain that comes along with it. I don’t get them JUST for the pain, I also like them. Pain is just a plus for me. Same goes for tattoos. I have many, many tattoos. Yes, they all have special meanings, but many of them I got, (besides just wanting them)  so I could hear that humming and feel the needle on my skin. For me, it feels as though the needle is caressing my skin, gently here and not so gently there. On some parts I can barely feel it, a nice touch; and on other parts, it’s a nice pinch.

I was just wondering/curious if there are others out there that get these things done for more than one reason and for more than just getting them done.