I decided it was time to take charge of my weight issues. I didn’t start having weight issues until I started certain medications, 9 years ago. Since then I have been gaining and losing between 20-35 pounds. My blood pressure also skyrocketed. I am 5ft, so even a few pounds makes a difference, I am not allowed much weight being this height. I was always thin, I was also in the Army, so I was able to maintain a healthy weight then because I was basically forced to work out. But now, not having a job and staying home all the time, it is so easy to eat all the time and be lazy. BUT it is also easy to eat right and exercise. I definitely have the time, so I have no excuse.
I have tried numerous workout programs, to include: Hip Hop Abs, The P.I.N.K Method, the 10 Minute Trainer, and a few Jillian Michaels videos. Hip Hop Abs was really fun, and it helped me get into shape when I was at my heaviest. After about 1 month, I hit a plateau and got discouraged, so I stopped working out. The 10 Minute Trainer was just a pain in the ass with all the bands and stuff, I didn’t really like the workouts, so I stopped after about 1-2 weeks. The P.I.N.K Method was fun, but I get bored easily, so I need more of a variety of workouts. I do recommend The P.I.N.K Method for women though (if you don’t get bored easily). The Jillian Michaels videos were also good, but I got bored with them.
I recently found this Supreme 90 Day System, not sure if I saw it on an infomercial or what, but since it is so cheap, I decided to give it a go. Nothing really to lose, except the pounds!! I started this system last week and I am loving it. I love the variety of workouts, there are a total 10 DVDs, so you get a different workout every day of the week. The workouts are fast paced and challenging. My muscles have been sore since I started. Muscles I didn’t even know I had, places that have never been sore before, and I love it. I feel stronger and energized. Most mornings I looked forward to the workout. There were a couple of mornings that I had to force myself to do it, but soon I was into it and felt better. It was worth the convincing.
With all that said, I am looking forward to what my body will look like in 90 days! I will post a before and after picture once I reach 90 days. I am doing this for many reasons. One, for my health, to bring my blood pressure down and everything else that improves with exercise, which is basically everything!! Complete well being! Feeling good about myself, being energized and not sluggish all the time. Being in shape to partake in many physically fit required activities. Just getting those natural endorphins to kick in.
Note: I am not following the nutritional guide, I never have, and I still lose the weight. I realize that I would probably lose more weight quicker by following the nutritional plan, but I am lazy on that part. However, I do eat much better than before, and I do watch what I eat. All I used to eat was junk food. I now also only drink water and coconut water. When I stopped drinking carbonated drinks (sodas) I lost 10 pounds without even exercising! I am not saying you should not follow the nutritional plan as well. I just wanted to make a note that I wasn’t.
Weight Starting Week 1: 140
Starting Week 1 Measurements: Chest 37, Waist 36, Hips 37
Weight Starting Week 2: 138.2
Starting Week 2 Measurements: Chest 37, Waist 35, Hips 37
I will be doing weekly updates as to my progress.
Here is a link to the Supreme 90 Day System
Not sure what year this was. Obviously I was in a bad place when I wrote these. Thankfully I am not there anymore/right now.
Just thought I would put a positive journal entry, since all I have posted were negative/bad day ones. Mainly because I journal when I was/am feeling negative/bad.
Ever feel like this?
Again this was written a couple of years ago. I still feel like this sometimes, but for the most part, I am okay with waking up. For a while I was doing really good, then I crashed. I am somewhere in between right now, working my way back up.
December 11, 2009
I can’t handle my fucked up thoughts! So, I am watching a movie and saw a huge explosion and thought “wow that’s beautiful” then thought about taking a bunch of pills to be out of it and then pour gasoline all over my body and light myself on fire. How do these thoughts come so
easily to my mind. It is sick! Will I ever stop realizing how f’d up these types of thoughts are and take action. It is scary. And who could I confide in and tell? Mike would get so upset, and family would. I do not wish to confide this even to a therapist. Not to
anyone. Not many could comprehend these thoughts. Even I can’t. I am sick.
I wrote this back in 2009, when I was still in a bad place. I do not wish to harm myself like that anymore. And to make a note of it, I NEVER wish any harm on anyone else.
I used to be so ashamed… well, still am, of some of the thoughts that go through my mind. Ashamed may not be the proper word, but I can’t think of another word to describe how I feel about these thoughts. They are not normal. I can think of some of the most twisted things without any kind of effort. They just come into my mind. I try to fight them, and say to myself “stop thinking like this”. But the fact is, those types of thoughts have always been there. Through the good days and the bad days. I will just imagine catastrophic events taking place where ever I am, and who ever I am with. I see it take place so vividly, and I hate that. Maybe it is just something I need to accept as being part of me. But it is just to twisted to be part of me. Maybe it’s because I have such a vivid and colorful imagination. I don’t know. I have no clue where these thoughts come from or why I think them…